VERSE 1:
So, where's my happy end?
The one you promised me back then
I held on to your words I hoped were true
But now I'm sad again
Let's stop this play pretend
to feel the eyes that never end
They sting your skin, their patience thin
I suffer for your (I don't think I can say this)
And it's not like I have nobody, but
Some days I question if you cared about me
Am I sick at heart? Am I too fucked up? (Bad!)
Deluded from a fantasy
Preaching lies, seeking smiles
Keep it hidden and don't erupt
Just laugh away the thoughts of insecurities
CHORUS:
I can't get over it
Over all the little shit
I got so used to this soft abuse
I made excuses for your amusement
We had enough of this
The lying, waiting, dragging under
Is decency such a rarity, you constant lying motherfucker?
VERSE 2/RAP:
Janc*k 'i! 'Ndi janji-janjimu?
[Ya bastard. I'm sick of your promises!]
Lambe, lambe lamis, 'mung nggawakake tangis, bengis
[All that sweet talks only hurts me, it angers me deeply]
Jaremu setia sampai mati? Alah. Tai!
[Said you will be there to the end of me, but didcha really?]
'Ra arep ngundang "sliramu", tapi "raimu"!
[Yeah, fuck that. I'm done addressing you endearingly!]
I bathe in waterfalls of tears through the day and night
[Urip nandhang tangis, awan klawan wengi]
Nightmare I can't wake up from, no matter how I tried
[Ibarat wong ngimpi, aku kepingin tangi]
How long? Abot. Tobat nandhang lara
[Uwis? I can't. I can no more bear this pain]
Forgive my sin, duh Romo. Ingsun kepingin moro
[Ngapunten, dear Father. I think I'm leavin']
CHORUS:
I can't get over it
Over all the little shit
I got so used to this soft abuse
I made excuses for your amusement
We had enough of this
The lying, waiting, dragging under
Is decency such a rarity, you constant lying...
Whatever
credits
released September 24, 2023
Lyrics written by Mika Melatika and audioTopia
illustration by Masfia (twitter.com/Masfia3)
instrumental by audioTopia
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